I surrender to the sadness, and to my problems telling myself I should grow up and act like my age. stop carrying you are not a child any more and you really can't solve this problem it is not in your hand.
and just before I close more on myself , I friend of mine advised me to see something that would cheer me up , so I did , it was a cooking show for kids. it wowed me . leaving me with that sentence that I keep telling myself lately " Grow up" , seeing them was so inspiring that reminds me of the reason I like my child spirit I used to have.
They are fearless ,adventurous, creative and willing to learn and gain new experiences. Not scared to cry when they are sad or lose in a competition.
Oh my God I love that about them. and then and only then the question hit me " Should I grow up?" but why ? to be responsible ?!!
- will I am I like to think so , but after all how many old people that we know really taking responsibility ? I the only thing I sow that we make our life harder and we translate being old to "stop show your feelings and you can't cry in public" and that will show how responsible you are .
well , I don't want that . I want to keep my young spirit and live a simple life where small things makes me happy and never to stop learning .
and I will pry to Allah to have that once more , it seems that I lost it in the process of trying to grow up.
Fatma El-Zhraa Mohamed
9 November 2013
